My Aha! Moment

Morning Thoughts: 1) I'm grateful for a new day. 2) I realize my mistake. 3) I am stronger and filled with a greater sense of confidence!

If you listened to ICB #8 you may have heard my confession. But, for the sake of my point I will post it here as well. A few years back I struggled to lose weight for ALL the WRONG reasons. This lead to me taking prescription diet pills, which contributed to a minor heart attack. After that event I came to the conclusion that NO AMOUNT of weight was worth dying for. I began to accept my body just as it was and I still do. I never needed to lose 100 pounds. It was always anywhere from 10 to 30 pounds. If I were to lose 30 pounds right now I'd be free from that darn sleep apnea machine. I've exercised, skipped meals (which lead to over eating) and I've even denied myself snacks that I truly love. I did all of this for the sake of being healthy, but there was one sure shot thing I hadn't done.

I Never Asked God To Help Me!!!

I went about losing weight on my own terms. I went by man's word as to how I should lose weight. My Aha moment came this Tuesday and I almost fell out of the chair when I realized this. My doctor connected me with a dietitian and during our conversation she asked "Tabitha, are you a spiritual person?" Of course, I replied yes. She then asked "have you ever asked God to guide you through your journey of weight loss?" I almost screamed, because I can't even explain why I hadn't turned to him in the first place! She explained that I could still eat what I love to eat, but in moderation and she said to only eat when I was truly hungry. What?! That was foreign to me, but I knew it was the truth. She also suggested I tried taking sips of water or juice in between bites and STOP once I felt full no matter how much food was left. I thought it was a sin to leave food on a plate, but if I had not been piling the plate with food in the first place this wouldn't have been an issue. Officially I started my new way of eating yesterday and it was a success! I ate only when I was hungry, sipped my water and stopped when I was absolutely full. I even exercised (danced) for 15 minutes!
I have now gone to God and asked for his guidance and strength. NOW I believe I have a fighting chance to rid myself of this blasted sleep apnea machine! I'm on my way to losing 30 pounds on His terms ONLY!! :)

Today's Awesome Moments:
-My time with The Father
-Dancing for 10 minutes
-Eating only when hunger hits
-Feeling a great sense of accomplishment