Yesterday my family and I found out that my cousin passed away. She was in a very crazy marriage, so we had been looking for her. My uncle found her yesterday morning in the newspaper. She passed away on the 9th and is being buried today in New Orleans. If my uncle had not read her obituary she would be buried and none of us would have known. It's very hurtful for us, because we tried so hard to reach her. He kept her away! He allowed her to die with no family around!!
Today my cousin whom I love with all I have will be buried and I can not attend her burial. He gave us no warning, no opportunity to say goodbye. He denied her the right to hear that she was loved deeply.
In 9 months we have lost our grandmother, an uncle and now a cousin. I'm wiped out. I'm tired and sad and numb. I can not believe this has happened in this fashion. She's an Angel now and I know our grandparents, her dad and our uncle greeted her with open arms. That is what I hold on to. But for now I am extremely tired. Tired of death. Tired of Evil people. Tired of crying. Tired of hurting. Within 9 months my heart has been crushed three times never truly healing before another death arrives. And yet, I'm still grateful. For many things and for many reasons.
Life is fragile. Please do NOT take it for granted.
I Love You Michelle, Uncle Russell and Grams!! Please help us get through this. It's just a bit too much for my soul to take on.
Namaste
Tabitha
